"feel like I’m constantly being forgotten"

I wanting to get my opinion across because I am becoming highly frustrated with my care and situation.

I am the only seg on this ward and feel like I’m constantly being forgotten about.

I am meant to get up for 4 hours a day but its rare that actually happens, and even then, that’s only when TI’S or DRC staff come over to help. Its not fair. Its down to the staffing levels. They just can’t get me up. I get support from my peer support worker which is regular.

When I’m left for hours on end, it makes me really anxious, and then when I do come out my room I’m even more anxious because it’s like I’m not used to be out amongst everyone. When staff come to my room to check on me, my fight or flight kicks in.

I self-harm to get the attention of the staff. Then I just feel sorry for my self afterwards. I cover my windows up so staff must come into my room to check me, I’m doing this before I want their attention, because how else am I meant to get it?

When staff can’t get me up from my room, I’m literally in it all day and all night. That cant be good for anyone’s mental health, can it?

I’m accused of team splitting, but its not fair. I asked a member of staff to help me or support me by getting me something, they may say there busy, or takes them ages because they go and do other things, so I ask another member of staff. They I’m accused of asking different members of staff to team split? I can’t do right for wrong and its frustrating.

Its not as bad as it was before, but I’ve felt staff say and do things to wind me up. They make little digs, and comments that annoy or upset me. Their tone of voice or facial expressions.

I want to progress, I want to be around my peers, I want to be given a chance to be around everyone but so I can manage it. I just feel lost right now.

I don’t get what I can do to prove myself? I want to show I can manage time out of my room, but also manage when I’m struggling and take my self back.