"Hospital stay and transfer to residential care facility"

I collapsed at home took a cardiac arrest and spent seven weeks in Antrim Intensive Care Unit. The things I remember are hallucinations they were very real.  I remember one of the staff members being lovely and very kind.

In B1 there were a number of male nurses/assistants they were very professional and kind but it was hard to get used to.  I felt mortified but I had to accept it. One staff nurse, was very calm and kind, a real gentleman.  Even when he wasn't looking after me directly he came and spoke to me and made me feel he really cared for me.  All the staff were extremely good to me.

There is one thing at the back of my mind that I keep thinking about, I had an ECG taken at the house by the Paramedics but when in the hospital it couldn't be found.  I felt angry about this as there was important information on it, with this said the Paramedics were brilliant, I would love to meet them and say thank you. 

Whilst I was in hospital I witnessed three different patients pass away, one after a cardiac arrest, one who bled out and one slipped away.  This was very traumatic, there was not actual follow up with me to see if I was ok after witnessing these deaths, this needs to be considered.  In Antrim they have exit doors, why is there a bed in front of these doors, what if there is an emergency, that worried me.

Moving to Rosedale I was told on a Sunday by the Social Worker I was going to Rosedale with no choice, I was feeling low anyway and learning this made me feel worse.  I didn't know when I was going. On the Monday afternoon I was told I was moving, the short notice of one hour later, I was being moved to Rosedale.  I felt upset about this, I was transferred by bus.

Being here is lovely, I am in a quiet environment, able to see the light, the grass and the trees.  I did feel apprehensive and worried about coming to a new place but it is all good now.