"Poor assessment"

After 10 overdoses in 10 days, continuing overdosing despite the medics telling me I’ll die of multiple organ failure I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital. However, I was not given or offered additional help by the decisions unit here.

I have tried and tried to get professionals to see that with complex ptsd, horrific trauma, immense near constant dissociation and EUPD my mental states fluctuate dramatically from moment to moment, as do other sufferers likewise. I have tried and tried to explain how bad things are.

It’s as if these people cannot hear, or plainly disbelieve what we say. I don’t understand why. I regularly become so distressed with the need for help that I say threatening things, as I learned many years ago that if you’re only a risk to yourself it doesn’t matter, so I learnt to say I’m a risk to others when I’m not. I suppose I should have realized they’d react like they did. But simultaneously, they should understand that not everyone in dire need of help remains in one mental state continuously, and they need to truly hear us. They even said it might be hormonal ie the menopause! I’ve had no issue with the menopause. I wish that’s all it is, in me! I’m severely traumatised.

I’m so badly dissociated nearly constantly that it feels like severe dementia. I’m traumatised in part by people like these here who do not believe what we say when we so obviously need help, causing us to up the ante and appear threatening to others in desperate need for care/support/help. I’m no threat to others, but definitely these people pushed me into a corner to come across as if I am dangerous. How far do we have to push just to be heard and helped?!

Overall I found this place to be totally ill-equipped for people suffering with massive amounts of trauma, CPTSD and EUPD.