"Covid-19 visiting"

I sit here in my car writing this post as I can’t be in with my child because it’s my husbands turn ! I write this post not as a complaint as I understand the reason for restricting visiting during COVID but to give a little insight into how it feels to be separated from your critically ill child. A child has two parents who want to spend every moment with them especially since they don’t know if their child will see tomorrow! So only allowing one parent in at a time breaks the family unit and the support system. The support both parents provide for each other is vital in trying to stay afloat in this horrific situation! I have to sit in the car as there is no where else I am allowed to go. I sit here anxious and nervous as I feel so far away from my child and husband. 

I sit here alone trying to process what the next hour has in store for us! I plan how long it would take me to get to the PICU from the car park in an emergency! If an emergency happened would I make it in time? As I sit here alone I have no one to reassure me that’s it’s going to be ok. COVID is not going away any time soon! Children becoming sick still happens during COVID so I feel that the Scottish government and the health board need to realise and have a better understanding of the trauma being separated from your sick child causes and review the rules! Come and spend some time with me in the unit and perhaps gain a bit of insight! Thank you